Lately

I have been feeling down lately. Christmas is approaching real soon and I will celebrate it without my parents this year. How sad! I somewhat thought that I am a family and homey child in our family. My little sister who is actually the one that really want to go out from our home and explore the world. I want it too but I want my parents with me as well. I know, it is kind of selfish, isn't it?

I do not know where to go. Everywhere in Papua is so far away. Minimum public transportation; mini bus and ojeg only. It cost so much and it is not safe enough for me to go alone. I have been disturbed by drunken men three times already. They asked for my money. Funny how the people surround at that time did not take any actions to help. It made me think that it is really common here for the drunken men freely exist until the society have had enough. The main reason for me do not want to go to my relatives' houses is because of the safety. I want them to pick me up but 1) they do not have car, only motorcycle, which is I refused to ride in (I am still in the trauma after crashed the bridge from motorcycle in the dark and almost fell into the gap) 2) the other relative has car but I do not know, I lost contact with them. Not really. I meant, I did not know how we lost contact. Month ago, we were still contacting each other. And because Christmas is coming soon, I contacted them again to make sure they can pick me up somewhere but they never replied my texts and picked up my phone. I asked my mom (because they are from my mom's family) if she could contact them but she also got zero. I kind of disappointed and sad and.. mad (of course! ha-ha!) but then I realized that you made your own family; my family is not only them.

Dad called this morning to check on me and... as always asked if I want or need something. Dad initiated to asked whether I want cookies or not. You know my answer right? ;) Of course I said, yes! :D Then, our conversations became gloomy. Dad asked me where will I spend Christmas. He asked me how many weeks I have for Christmas break (3 weeks). He asked about my mom's relative that according to the previous plan, I supposed to spend Christmas there. I kind of lazy to answer (you know that feeling, right?). He said if I needed help to contact the relative from his side. I said no need because I am this old already. I can do such thing, I am not a kid. To be honest, I did not have intention to visit though, because of the mom's relatives I do not want to go to any 'blood-related family' houses anymore. I do not want to have sleepovers as well. Why am I being like this? It made me sad :( Dad then excitedly offered me to come home (he forgot that I am in Papua right now) and I with a deep sigh answered, "It cost so much, dad. It's 8 millions" I honestly do not have money that much neither my parents. Even when they want to pay for the plan tickets, I feel useless somehow, I feel that I am burdening them again so you know what I am going to say even when I really want to come home.

I am so tired working. I am so tired of preparing lessons. I am so tired making teaching-aids. I am so tired for not having lots of money to spend to. I am tired for not having salaries like my friends who are working under an international or a national plus school label.

Have mercy on me Lord,
Golda -your forever little girl.

Love what you do

Hello!

It has been two months since I wrote you a post. Sorry for being hiatus again. Life has been great so far yet tiring. I never knew (-I neglected all the saying) that first year teaching experience would be hard. Indeed, it is true! Adjusting with school's system was not easy, even until now I am still adjusting. Getting to know new people again -and again, adapt with the new culture. You do not need to go abroad to experience new culture. Being an Indonesian citizen from the western part and now currently living in the eastern part has shown me the real rich cultural diversity. Never thought before that I would step on Papua. Never ever.

My student teaching experiences were all blast! Make at least 20 lesson plans? Easy! Conducting a big event? Easy! But why is it so hard when you deal with your own classroom now? That is the thing. Because now you are the leader of your own classroom. You are not hiding behind someone's, not anymore. That is why, everything was easy. Now, you take control of everything and be responsible of the choices or steps you decide. Scary, isn't it? The school gave me the privilege to be a first grade teacher and art coordinator, also being the leader for our annual event: Pekan Nusantara. These past 6 months have been such roller coaster to me. It rolls me ups and downs, many times without a break. I wonder how did the more than decades dedicated teachers out there survive from their first year teaching? They must be had such day, just like me! Trying to keep breathing while actually queue for oxygen, ha-ha!

I'm out for now, see you on the next post. Hopefully with the new design/concept I promised you :)

The one who is longing for holiday soon,

Golda

a new blog design is coming... soon!

Hello buddies! How's everyone doing? Good? I hope you guys are feeling good and enjoying God's gift in our lovely planet called Earth well :)

I know that there are not many people visit and read this blog and I am sooooo sorry again for making another spider web on this blog. I know I know, it did not please your eyes, haha! Me too.

Just a little update...


I am now living in Papua - the Eastern part of my beloved homeland, Indonesia for at least 3 years. I graduated already both from the Corban University in Salem, Oregon -USA and Universities Pelita Harapan, in Lippo Village - Indonesia. Proudly present to you *drumrolls* Golda Regina Uli Purba, B.Ed., S.Pd, wohooo!! :D :D I, myself even until now could not believe that I could pass the thesis defense, that I could submit my thesis on time, well, in time (you know my thesis supervisor tricked us so that we could submit even wayyyy earlier than everyone. Smart, isn't it? ;))

Well, I am now a teacher, a super brand new teacher. But my principal told me and other new teachers that there is no new teacher, we should call ourself as an effective teacher. I kind of not confident when he told us that but it somehow gives me hope that I will become a great teacher in the future. Like the wine that gets better through the year, God will not going to leave me alone; He will always hold His children's hands :) and I will surely get better also. There is always the first time for everything and for everyone including me. I am so new about the school's systems where I am working at, and I am so clueless! Honestly, if I could scream, I would. If I could keep sighing, I would. But, complaining stuff are no good at all. I thank God for every teachers here especially the new teachers from the same cohort as me who were just graduated; for the reminders to keep in the Spirit of the Lord :) Thank you guys, thank you Jesus for always giving people who cares, who wants to see the needs of other people.

Not to forget to mention, my beloved awesome parents; mamak and bapak! For your never ending support, care, prayers, and many other things that a daughter like me cannot count. Cannot stop thanking God for giving me such parents, parents that every child could ever asked for! :) Thank you for believing in me through the ups and downs, thank you for never give up on me when I made mistakes. Thank you for showing your love, thank you for proving that family is truly God's wonderful gift in life.

I am now in Papua and already two months, can you imagine theta??!!! Haha. I am so excited to see what God has in store for me everyday. Just a month here, God gave me something that at first, made me mad at Him. Sorry, God. I was so upset with everyone, everything at my school. I even had this thought on my mind that I wanted to quite. I could not handle the battle - I thought. But, I believe that God will never give you something or things that you cannot solve or handle. When we feel that it is really hard, we feel that it is a hard burden, a giant rock on our shoulder, we often forgot that God actually besides us, to give us comfort. That's human, selfish. I want to be mold everyday by You, Jesus. Shape me, purify me. Help me to be more like You everyday. Give me a big heart for other people who hurt me, who left scars in my life - my heart. And forgive my mistakes to others as well. I am not perfect but You are perfect :)

As I am looking back, there is no greater thing than my Father's plans for me. If He is the one who calls, then He is the one who will provide as well. I want to keep reminding myself that there is no need to be afraid of as long as I walk with Him. I believe that my stay here in Papua, will bring good news to people. There is no thing that useless :) Even if it is a small thing, when God says it will become bigger, it will. So, Golda, keep your chin up, stay humble, keep the Spirit of the Lord, bring good news to other people! Do not be afraid, never lose hope - to you people as well :)

Look up Jeremiah 29:11 :)

So, to close my last post before a brand, a fresh new design/layout, blessings to you all!

Have a nice day!

Golda Regina Purba

Movie Review: #nontonPTE -Pendekar Tongkat Emas (The Golden Cane Warrior)

Telah lama film mengenai kisah kependekaran tidak muncul di industri perfilman Indonesia, sampai pada akhirnya Miles Films dan KG Studios menghadirkannya kembali dengan judul "Pendekar Tongkat Emas" yang mulai dapat disaksikan pada tanggal 18 Desember 2014. Film ini diproduseri oleh Mira Lesmana, seorang produser yang bersama tim nya telah dipercaya menghasilkan film-film berkualitas dengan kali ini menggandeng sutradara bernama Ifa Isfansyah. Selain itu, film ini pun didukung oleh aktor-aktor seperti Nicholas Saputra, Eva Celia, Tara Basro, Reza Rahadian, sampai aktor senior Slamet Rahardjo dan aktris senior Christine Hakim.

Film yang berdurasi 112 menit ini menceritakan tentang seorang pendekar silat bernama Cempaka yang memiliki sebuah benda pusaka berupa tongkat yang harus diwariskan kepada salah seorang dari keempat muridnya dikarenakan kondisi fisiknya yang mulai menurun. Kabar pewaris telah terdengar oleh pihak-pihak "gelap" yang juga menginginkan pusaka tersebut, sehingga mulai muncul aksi-aksi pembunuhan hingga penghianatan. Di sini lah awal dari ketegangan di mulai. Dialog demi dialog yang dihasilkan oleh para aktor cukup mampu membawa para penonton mengikuti peristiwa yang terjadi dalam film. Aksi perkelahian yang cepat seperti film action Cina yang cukup memukau juga meningkatkan adrenalin para penonton.

Film ini sangat menarik buat disaksikan mengingat bahwa Indonesia sudah lama tidak lama menampilkan film mengenai dunia pendekar seperti pada tahun 80-an. Selain itu film ini juga sarat dengan nilai kehidupan, di mana kesabaran dan ketekunan merupakan suatu langkah yang tepat dalam memecahkan masalah. Di tambah lagi dengan mengambil lokasi di Pulau Sumba, NTT, penonton juga dimanjakan dengan keindahan alam Indonesia yang pula disajikan dengan sinematografi yang bagus.

Dengan menyaksikan film ini, para penonoton akan dibawa ke dalam rasa kekaguman akan bangsa Indonesia yang ternyata mampu menghasilkan karya berkualitas dengan tetap tidak menghilangkan rasa ke-Indonesia-an.

Mari dukung perfilman Indonesia dengan ramai-ramai ke Bioskop! Jangan lupa tonton Pendekar Tongkat Emas ya. You know you won't miss it! ;)


Yang sudah #nontonPTE,









Golda Regina Purba

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